emotion

having a son is tough.. minsan kailangan mong isipin na paano kung di sya lumaking tama .. kung agiging mabuti ka bang Ina or magulang sa kanya.. kung lahat ba nang ituturo mo ay gagawin nya ; susundin or ipagwawalang bahala. kapag lumaki ba sya , mananatili ba sya sa tabi mo ? pag-aaralan nya ba ang mga bagay bagay na gusto nyang matutunan? magiging basehan ba lagi ang kapaligiran bilang isang malaking eskwelahan lalo na pag natuto na syang lumabas ng bahay at di mo na mamomonitor ang mga galaw nya, .. siguro nga hindi, walang perpektong magulang pero lahat tayo gusto maging successful ang mga anak natin lalo na pag ito ay lalaki .. sa anong dahilan? dahil sya ang magtataguyod sa kanyang pamilya balang araw.. sya ang magsisilbing pundasyon ng kanyang magiging anak sya yung magiging sandalan ng kanyang misis sya yung magsisilbing alalahanin ng kanyang magulang kahit tumanda pa ito at sya ang magiging inspirasyon ng kanyang magiging anak na baabe kung anong dapat na lalaki ang magi...

when i look back on all relationships i had, there is always one thing in common. you gave the whole fucking self and yet been treated like you are not that effin' important. you run over them ; follow them wherever they might be and have been left in the middle . from a so called perfect escape; to another sweet escape; to another journey of foolishness and now inside a house that u wish will be home yet it's not. i told myself if ever i will have a family , i will place much effort to keep my partner upclose and my kid should have more time; > you can have no job but have an expensive love of labor for your kid > you can have no friends since you are building your family > you have to close your doors to opportunity just to let your partner build his own success > you can let everyone pull you down as long as you know that you are standing for what you belive in.. before i can make things happen... why can't i do it again? > hindrance will be - unsuppor...